(no subject)

[closerift]

" this is cecily trevelyan of the inquisition.
i cannot be reached at the moment, but if you leave your information i will reply quick as i can. "

Comments

[closerift]

I can appreciate the merits of a ridiculous love story, but I'm inclined to not believe you.

Are you not going to tell me? Will I have to investigate into this on my own?

[unitas]

Any love story I'm a part of is ridiculous, Cecily. [ It's just a matter of fact, honestly, though falling for something like Fear would take ridiculous and toss it overboard for a word yet to be discovered. ]

I think you'd figure it out if you did a little digging, but I don't think that's necessary, even if it'd be fun to watch you try and guess. [ No, really, do you have any idea how tempting that is? Turn it into an elaborate game of Guess Who? ] Promise not to judge?

[closerift]

I promise. The suspense is eating away at me.

[unitas]

Mello. [ This is not a joke response. Hi, my name is Sharon, and I often fall for the guys who aren't good for me. ]

1/3

[closerift]

[closerift]

Didn't he KILL you?

[closerift]

Oh, SHARON.

[unitas]

Hey, it's OK, I killed him, too. [ Yep. This is. Mmhm. Granted, he was possessed by a demon, but whatever, you know. ]

It's fucked up, right?

What do I do?

[closerift]

[ If this were a video conversation, then Sharon could see her friend's toothy smile. ]

YOU don't do anything. I find him and throttle him.

[unitas]

Please tell me you're joking. [ she will lock you in your house :| ]

1/2

[closerift]

Would that make you feel better?

[closerift]

All right, all right. I'm joking.

I will never look at him the same way again, though.

[unitas]

He's really not as much of an ass as he comes off on the network. [ ...Mostly. ]

[closerift]

So you say.

You really have feelings for him?
Do you mind if I ask what it is you find attractive?

[unitas]

[ What kind of question is that? It takes Sharon some time to come up with a reply that makes any sort of sense because every time she types something out it just... it sounds stupid.

It is stupid. Hell, she feels stupid. ]

He doesn't judge me. [ There are a million other reasons but that's the one that sticks out the most; maybe that's the one that means the most, too. ] No matter what I've done. No matter what I will do.

It's like all the bad things about me, it's like he doesn't mind them, or just doesn't care that they're there at all.

[closerift]

[ There's a bit of a lapse before her reply: ]

Don't mind my assuming, but could it be less that he doesn't care about what you see as your flaws and more that he cares for you in spite of them?

I've said what you're saying. I can sympathize.

The people who really and truly care for you are the ones who can look those bad things full in the face and work around them at your side.

[unitas]

[ What kind of thoughtful reply is this???? Ugh. Sharon loves Cecily. ]

See, and that's just something I never thought I'd find. Ever. [ Cecily is, without a single doubt, her closest friend here, but even she knows little of the atrocities Sharon has gifted her world. She's so scared of losing people for what she's done and even more terrified of losing them to the fact that she feels no guilt for her crimes. ]

Because I've done things that... I've done things you can never ever come back from, no matter how hard you try. The kinds of things that make your own mother look at you like a monster.

[ Not Rose, never Rose, but Dahlia's perception of her daughter had changed after the church massacre. ]

[closerift]

[ She types "I wouldn't know," in response to the last comment, but it sounds too melodramatic, even if it's true. Instead, Cecily sighs, putting her own mother from her mind, and writes a new message: ]

Everyone has demons in their lives. Past, present, future. Wherever they are. You can come back from the worst of it... if you want to. It isn't easy, but it's possible. I've seen it, Sharon. I promise you.

[unitas]

And what about when you don't want to come back from it?

[closerift]

Don't you dare.
You know that you have people who care about you who need you.

[unitas]

Not coming back from something... that's not like leaving, you know. It's like accepting yourself for what you really are and hoping that the people you care about can accept it, too.

He's done that: seen the very worst I have to offer, worse than anything he's ever done, and he's just... He still likes me.

Maybe that makes him crazy.

[closerift]

Maybe that means his feelings for you are true.

Though I am predisposed to be suspicious of anyone who would get close to you.
You'll have to forgive me.

[unitas]

I can't blame you. Fuck, he killed me and ruined my only attempt to kill the gods or get us home.

But I'm glad he did.

He apologized to me for it, you know?

[closerift]

Anyone can apologize.

Do you truly believe he meant it?

[unitas]

[ Anyone can apologize, Sharon knows that, but she truly believes that Mello regrets his actions against her, even after she informed him that death was her ultimate goal if all else failed—she just didn't take into account that Hope is the ultimate asshole and would bring her back, even after what she did. ]

I do.

And if he didn't apologize, he's made it up to me and I'm over it. If you can't believe him, then you're going to just have to believe me.