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[closerift]

" this is cecily trevelyan of the inquisition.
i cannot be reached at the moment, but if you leave your information i will reply quick as i can. "

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Nov 28th | Text

[unitas]

How did you know when you liked Cullen as more than just a friend? [ Feelings, please explain these terrible things to her. Thank you. ]

[closerift]

The warm tingling was in my heart and not just between my legs.

[unitas]

How did you deal with that? Did you tell him? Were you afraid he wouldn't feel the same?

[closerift]

[ How dare you spoil her fun with sentiment?? ]

Of course I was afraid. I was terrified. I'd never felt that way for anyone.

Truth is, I think I flirted with everyone in the camp. It wasn't until later that I realized I spent so much time teasing him in particular was because it was different.

I kissed him before I told him; that's just my way.
The words came after. Once I could face the truth of it myself.

[unitas]

[ Sharon sometimes forgets that, for all their similarities, they are very different from one another. Sharon's ability to flirt is nonexistent, and when she tries, it's awkward and fumbling and horrible. Really horrible. Maybe she should ask Cecily for some tips at some point. ]

And how do you... How did you face the truth of it?

[closerift]

With a lot of sleepless nights and wine.

You're worrying me. Who is this mysterious person you're fancying?

[unitas]

[ She's got the sleepless nights and drinking down. ]

Fancying? Yeah, that's a word for it.

Would you flip your shit if I told you it was Fear? [ She's just joking with you, Cecily. She's not a total fun ruiner, you know! ]

[closerift]

I can appreciate the merits of a ridiculous love story, but I'm inclined to not believe you.

Are you not going to tell me? Will I have to investigate into this on my own?

[unitas]

Any love story I'm a part of is ridiculous, Cecily. [ It's just a matter of fact, honestly, though falling for something like Fear would take ridiculous and toss it overboard for a word yet to be discovered. ]

I think you'd figure it out if you did a little digging, but I don't think that's necessary, even if it'd be fun to watch you try and guess. [ No, really, do you have any idea how tempting that is? Turn it into an elaborate game of Guess Who? ] Promise not to judge?

[closerift]

I promise. The suspense is eating away at me.

[unitas]

Mello. [ This is not a joke response. Hi, my name is Sharon, and I often fall for the guys who aren't good for me. ]

1/3

[closerift]

[closerift]

Didn't he KILL you?

[closerift]

Oh, SHARON.

[unitas]

Hey, it's OK, I killed him, too. [ Yep. This is. Mmhm. Granted, he was possessed by a demon, but whatever, you know. ]

It's fucked up, right?

What do I do?

[closerift]

[ If this were a video conversation, then Sharon could see her friend's toothy smile. ]

YOU don't do anything. I find him and throttle him.

[unitas]

Please tell me you're joking. [ she will lock you in your house :| ]

1/2

[closerift]

Would that make you feel better?

[closerift]

All right, all right. I'm joking.

I will never look at him the same way again, though.

[unitas]

He's really not as much of an ass as he comes off on the network. [ ...Mostly. ]

[closerift]

So you say.

You really have feelings for him?
Do you mind if I ask what it is you find attractive?

[unitas]

[ What kind of question is that? It takes Sharon some time to come up with a reply that makes any sort of sense because every time she types something out it just... it sounds stupid.

It is stupid. Hell, she feels stupid. ]

He doesn't judge me. [ There are a million other reasons but that's the one that sticks out the most; maybe that's the one that means the most, too. ] No matter what I've done. No matter what I will do.

It's like all the bad things about me, it's like he doesn't mind them, or just doesn't care that they're there at all.

[closerift]

[ There's a bit of a lapse before her reply: ]

Don't mind my assuming, but could it be less that he doesn't care about what you see as your flaws and more that he cares for you in spite of them?

I've said what you're saying. I can sympathize.

The people who really and truly care for you are the ones who can look those bad things full in the face and work around them at your side.

[unitas]

[ What kind of thoughtful reply is this???? Ugh. Sharon loves Cecily. ]

See, and that's just something I never thought I'd find. Ever. [ Cecily is, without a single doubt, her closest friend here, but even she knows little of the atrocities Sharon has gifted her world. She's so scared of losing people for what she's done and even more terrified of losing them to the fact that she feels no guilt for her crimes. ]

Because I've done things that... I've done things you can never ever come back from, no matter how hard you try. The kinds of things that make your own mother look at you like a monster.

[ Not Rose, never Rose, but Dahlia's perception of her daughter had changed after the church massacre. ]

[closerift]

[ She types "I wouldn't know," in response to the last comment, but it sounds too melodramatic, even if it's true. Instead, Cecily sighs, putting her own mother from her mind, and writes a new message: ]

Everyone has demons in their lives. Past, present, future. Wherever they are. You can come back from the worst of it... if you want to. It isn't easy, but it's possible. I've seen it, Sharon. I promise you.